Hello there...it's ME again

So apparently, many of you guys may have long since forgotten about me and my barely there ways lol but hey, life called and things got HECTIC. I won't bother to go into details, it's irrelevant anyways. Well, to you guys at least. I'll just get into what you guys are actually here for, my weight loss journey; which, as of late, you could call my "Trying-to-get-back-on-track-and-find-a-plan-I-can-stick-to-bouncing-up-and-down-the-scales journey" lol. My life is CRAZY right now (I believe I said that already) which is why I decided this blog would be more like a journal instead. Just a place I could come to and vent or share my excitement so that once I FINALLY reach my goal, I won't forget all that I went through to get there. It's nice to have someone rooting for you so I hope I haven't lost you guys but even if I did I have to realize I'm doing this for ME. Should I inspire someone, GREAT but I won't complete this journey by trying to be a false icon to others and beating myself up when I feel I don't live up to their expectations. I mean no offense to anyone so please don't take it that way. I love the encouragement you guys give me, it does help to keep me going. The downside is I really shy away from my blog with the "ugly" so I don't disappoint anyone but that's when I need encouragement the most. *sigh* rant over.

Just a quick re-cap for those of you who are still interested in knowing and also for the record:

I started my journey 1/16/2010 at a ridiculous 290lbs
I did the induction phase of Atkins and lost about 50 pounds in 4 months
The warm weather rolled around and having accomplished what I did I allowed myself to slack a little
I was able to maintain until I tried getting back on track in september
I don't remember how long it took but eventually I got to 219 which was 71 pounds DOWN
I maintained between 220-225 for a few months
I tried the HCG diet in April 2011 for my trip to Miami in May.
I started around 233 I believe but some of that was water weight
I did it for a month, I stopped a few days short cause I just couldn't take it anymore! I went from 233-203 which was my lowest weight EVER. I wanted ONEderland SO BAD but being that I went on vacation a week later, I never saw it.
I gained while on vacation (duh, doesn't everybody?)
And again, I continued to bounce around the 2-teens and 2-twenties
Thankfully, I never saw 230 on the scale again.
Which brings me to now...

I've been in a rut since late August. Not exercising, eating whatever I wanted and not giving a damn.
But that 228.8 I seen on the scale was just what I needed to get my ass in gear!
I've been doing ok, I'm closer to 225-222 at this time and I plan to stay away from the scale for a few weeks cause it is definately my kryptonite.

I've said enough, I'm signing off. In short, I've started this journey wanting to lose 140. I've lost the first half and I am FINALLY ready to take on the next.

XO------Bella